Where am I?

This blog is not about an act of love but about what is on my heart. I felt like writing to God and decided to post it up so here it goes. Lord where am I? I know you are right with me, and that I am not alone. In some ways I think back to missions when I was so focused on wanting to see something tangible but at the same time doesn't feel the same.

When I was in high school I had acts of love to do everyday looking forward to serving you and your people day to day. Yet in my new environment it seems so difficult. Not only that I have no confirmation on which path I am going down, I have an ideal but still my vision is blurred.

The feeling is so weird because I am not dry, your glory is strong your love overwhelms me. Yet for some reason I feel so..contained, so weird its hard for me to explain.

I have read this letter in my bible which is a combination of scriptures goes a little something like this:

My Beloved

I know that you have become weary and feel the weight of the world on your shoulders. Come to Me and I will give you rest. Bring all your anxiety and fear to me and leave them with Me. I will keep you in perfect peace when you keep your mind on Me and trust Me. I care about you.

Know that I have given you My peace. I do not give to you as the world gives...and then takes away. So do not let your heart be troubled and do not be afraid. I will fill you with joy and peace if you will trust in Me.

Instead of dwelling on confusion and anxiety, present your concerns to Me in prayer, and be thankful. Then let your mind dwell on things that are true and noble, things that are right and pure, things that are lovely and admirable- all that is excellent and praiseworthy. And the peace you will have-My peace-you will not be able to explain to others. No one can understand it, but you can have it.

Live your life according to my instructions, and I will be with you; because I am the God of peace, My peace will stand guard over your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.

Isa 26:3; Mt 11:28; Jn 14:27; Ro 15:13; Php 4:6-9; 1Pe 5:7

Now after reading this I feel a weight lifted off me. I realized I was worrying even though I thought I wasn't, that easily I was worrying. I also realized I hadn't spoken to God about what was on my heart, something was holding me back, I'm not sure what it was.I had this feeling that made me think I had to be doing something spiritual to feel better. However this is wrong because it is not us at all but 100% God, he just chooses to use us and in the process we are also blessed.

This proves how powerful Gods word is. I encourage all of you to read your bibles, if all of our troubles just stopped and we never felt anxiety a struggle, then we would cease to pick up our bibles. Some times we want a direct answer, and that direct answer is the bible.

Honestly a couple nights ago I finished a book of the bible and I felt like I didn't know where to go next, I kind of wanted something that would apply to what I was going through, but just read. God has surprises in every books of the bible, and he will bless you in more ways than one.

Never forget:

Future Glory

¹⁸I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.

Back to the basics

Today I had a wonderful day, and as it was coming to an end I realized I hadnt done an act of love. So I decided to pray for a couple of my friends over facebook after hearing what they were going through.

The thought of knowing someone is keeping you in prayer is comforting and encouraging in any situation. Sometimes God wants us to just check up on the people who we are close to because you never know how you may be used or which one of your friends could use a talk.

Now unto the one

Today was an interesting day, I woke up knowing I had praise practice which I was excited for and then evangelizing with Erica and Stacy. When I woke up I felt like worshiping so I grabbed my guitar and began to play a couple songs. Soon after I began to spend some time in the bible and I reviewed Romans.

A little time after I felt like worshiping some more and it was at this point I felt caught up in the spirit. I have been previously going through a roller coaster ride with God where all he has been asking of me was to trust him. Thats all he just wants me to trust him no matter the situation or circumstance. So thats what my previous month has been like.

Once again it is hard for me to put into words what has been going through my mind or where I have been going but all I know is God is present and that he is moving.

Today after praise practice I met up with Stacy and Erica and we prayed for what we would be doing today.We went to go eat because I was starving, and then Erica said she felt we should go to Cali Yogurt so we headed there afterwards.We ended up meeting to students that go to Torrance high a sophomore and a senior. We found out that the sophomore had a foot injury and once we heard Erica was immediately filled with Joy. God had spoken to her not only to come to come to Cali Yogurt but that someone would need healing.

He told us he had a fractured foot and we began to pray for him. At first he said it felt a little better so we prayed more and then he said it felt 90% better. He was able to stand on his tippy toes and hop on it a little. He was supposed to be out of football for 2months. They were both pretty shocked.

I realized two things, not only am I capable of being used by God in anyway but also that it is time I begin to walk again. God has been transitioning me in and out of so many things I honesty didnt know where I was going and I still dont. Yet that doesn't frighten me, because I know he wants me to trust in him. However one thing I do know is it is time to pick up my cross and to spread his love by not only evangelizing but through the much more he has before me.

Sometimes we limit God and what he wants to do in our life without even knowing it. The prayers we pray he hears them, and he will answer them sometimes when you least expect it.

Fresh Start

Hello, it has definitely been awhile since I have blogged. I have been on a journey with God and after what has happened in the previous two days I'm going to start walking with God in a new way. How I feel right now cant be put into words however the spirit is with me and thats all I need.

Two days ago I went with a couple of my friends to pick one of our friends up from school. So we drove picked him up and then headed back. It was filled with many laughs and a search for a place to eat and so on. Finally as we were on our way back to church about 5minutes away we see a truck.

It was being pushed by a man and a woman. It was around 1 am and so we busted a U turn and hopped out of our car to help them push. We began pushing and the next thing we knew another guy hopped out of his car and helped push as well. we had 5 people pushing this truck down Sepulveda. Finally we got it to the gas station, said our goodbyes and wished them a great night.

This gave me a refreshing feeling of living a Love life and it is driving me to pursue God and his ways.